Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
We're in a season of life where the threat of attacks by the enemy is severe. It's been a very rough two weeks around here. There has been lots of change, lots of tears, lots of hurt, lots of angriness, but we're still straining ahead to defeat the enemy, and keeping our eyes on the Prize. "In this world you WILL have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world" ~ Jesus.
We have some wonderful friends who are encouraging us through these tumultuous times. Thank you God for all of them. I don't know where we would be without those who have lifted our arms when we've felt like dropping them or giving up. God made us to be in relationships. Relationships with others and relationships with Him, the Giver of Life. Thank you God for making us this way; for giving us people to love and to be loved by, and for loving us despite our screwed-up-ness.
Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers over these next few weeks, as we know the "terror level" will probably remain high. We will be looking for a new church, which is always hard, especially on the children. We will be in God's word and praying that we can be the "hands and feet of Jesus" wherever He leads us. Meanwhile, I continue to prepare for my trip to Uganda in May. I know the enemy would love nothing better to discourage our family, make us angry and bitter, and distract us from the work the Lord has called us to do. Please pray against disunity within our family and pray that the enemy would be rebuked. For we know that "in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have ben called according to His purpose".
Thursday, March 04, 2010
The Church and Debt: Okay, so the poll is closed and the results are in: Only 25 people voted, but 77% thought churches should NOT go into debt, 9 % said yes, it was okay for the church to go into debt, and 13% were not sure. I know this is not a 'scientific' study, per se, but it affirms that this is something that churches in America need to be talking about and praying about and being open with their congregations about so they're not wooed by the enemy into becoming part of the American Dream. My favorite (biased) comment on the subject is here, in case you missed it.
I read a quote by Ed Stetzer yesterday that really spoke to my heart: "The American dream is one of the biggest distractions Satan uses us to distract us from God's global mission."
I've thought about this quote since I read it and throughout the night. I also finished reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan yesterday. Man, God is really messing with my brain and my heart. I know that He is calling me out, calling me to be different, and calling me to be "radical". I'm trying to seek God to find out what this will look like in my life. I've always been a little "radical" or "different" or "someone who marches to the beat of her own drum", but I know that God is asking me to "kick it up a notch".
I've lived the past thirty something years yearning for the American Dream: A nice big house (decorated like a Pottery Barn catalog), nice cars, healthy children, no wrinkles, a fashionable wardrobe, 401K, college funds, etc. You get the picture.
Now all of a sudden God has nailed home the reality that I am NOT promised tomorrow! What am I doing TODAY that will make a difference in light of eternity? James 4:13-14 says: Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit." Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that just appears for a little while and vanishes away.
I'm writing all this because really I just need a good therapist but can't afford one...haha. Lucky for you all right? I'm struggling here with this and I hope some of you are too...... Why am I saving money to redo my bedroom with new duvet covers, paint, curtains, etc. when people are hungry and lonely and hurting? Yeah so my duvet cover is a little ripped and I don't like the paint color, but will I live without a new one? Of course. (But God... I REALLY want to paint my bedroom!! *stomping my foot*).
Surely we all know people who died suddenly or tragically.... they never saw it coming. If I died next week, would I want people to say "Kirsten has a really nicely decorated bedroom" or "Kirsten thought of the needs of others before her own"?
But this is HARD! My friend Anne Marie said this yesterday: HA! The American Dream - how long will we believe that lie. I still fall back into that lie so easily. As if we have been promised anything for this life except persecution and trouble because of our love for Christ. Salvation is all about when we are united with Him for eternity - not heaven, not what we think heaven has for us but HIM! Just Jesus! Oh if I could only remember this ever time I waver.
I feel the same way!! And this is the radical life that God wants us to live: to forsake the American Dream for Jesus... not conform to it!
Again, I don't know exactly what this looks like for me, but I'm excited, scared, anxious, etc. to find out!