Startling Statistics

Did you know that every 18 seconds a child becomes an orphan?  

At the same time, Americans spend: 

$19, 977 on coffee

$46, 804 on clothing

$9,132 on bottled water

$28, 539 on diet products (that don't work)

$9,703 on pet food

I don't know about you, but this is disturbing to me.

It's time we did something.

John and I just got back from going on a youth retreat with our small groupies and kids from our church.  We got very little sleep but it was awesome to see how God is working in the lives of the young people in this generation.  They really are running after God; they want more of Him and to see His power manifested in their lives.  It is humbling to be able to witness the fire that our Father has set in the hearts of these kids.  It has given me a greater desire to run after God myself and to go further on the path that He has laid out for me.

I've been struggling, as many of you know, to find that path, the perfect path that God has laid out for me.  God has been speaking to my heart but it's still hard for me to see.  I'm trying to live each day, one at a time, with the faith that it is He who is leading me.  One thing I've been struggling with lately is the apathy of the church.  This is one topic that has me really fired up and I'm not sure what to do with it.

The thing I see that is driving me absolutely crazy is this:  Why doesn't the church get it?  And by 'church' I mean the global church, each and every individual who calls themselves  Christ followers and who makes up the body of Christ.  There is something huge that Christ-followers are missing.  Even more specifically, I'm talking about American Christians; those of us who live in wealth and abundance and yet are either too naive or too busy or too blind to see God's children dying all over the world.

A lot of Christians are getting it right, so please don't flame me if you're one of them.  I'm just frustrated with those who don't get it.  When a disciple asked Jesus what the greatest command was, He said this:  Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.  And:  Love your neighbor as yourself.  All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commands.  That's right, all the Law and all the Prophets hang on these two commands!!  I think a lot of us get the loving God thing down okay, but it's the 'loving our neighbor as ourselves' that we have trouble with.  And again, I'm talking to Christ-followers here, those of us who have been given a command and yet just don't get it.

We live in such a self-absorbed culture.  How many of us are loving our neighbors as ourselves?  (If you don't know who your neighbor is, you can read about it in Luke, chapter 10.)  How can we sit by and let thousands upon thousands of children die of curable or treatable diseases in places like Africa?  How can we turn a blind eye to widows and orphans in places like Guyana with no clean drinking water?  How do we sleep at night when children are sleeping in the streets and are sold into sex-trafficking all around the world?  How can we save for cushy retirements when children are dying TODAY, RIGHT NOW because they don't have adequate medical care all over the world?

It seems to me that 'ignorance is bliss' could be a new church motto in our country.  No wonder the world hates Americans.  We spend a lot of our time complaining about what we don't have, bitching and complaining about the government and the president, wasting our time at Tea Parties and the like, complaining about taxes and the economy and spending our money on worthless crap from Walmart.  Is that what it means to love your neighbor?  As churches we tend to place a high priority on Jesus as a 'get out of hell free' card instead of ministering to the needs of those who are really in need.  Yes, we all need Jesus, but: Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? ¹⁰Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?  The thing about Jesus is He met people where they were and fulfilled their needs.  How can we expect to preach the gospel without first meeting the basic needs of those we're trying to reach?  Why should we expect people to truly be saved when we're all talk and no walk?

My heart is heavy.  How can it not be?  I want to make a difference.  I will make a difference.  We can all make a difference.  None of this is too big or too un-surmountable for God, or for us if we are truly Christ-followers.  I hope you'll think about some of this and pray about what you can personally do to make a difference to 'the least of these'.

The curse of Compassion

I was born a compassionate person.  I am emotional.  I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve.  At times, this has been a curse in my life.  I even hated God for the compassion that I felt for others because I lost several things in my quest to be a savior to those in some sort of need, whether it be a physical or emotional one.  I would cry out to God "WHY ME?!  WHY DO I HAVE TO CARE SO MUCH WHEN NO ONE ELSE SEEMINGLY DOES??" I was the girl with the weight of the world in her hands.

During my teenage years I rebelled against my compassionate nature and tried very very hard to turn my thoughts to my own self gratification and righteousness.  I usually succeeded because I am very strong-willed and God gave me the freedom to choose my own path.  As it turns out, it was a very hard and bumpy path with lots of twists, turns, potholes, and even chasms in it.  But even when, in our own stubbornness, we choose the wrong path and try to change what God has made us to be, He is there, like a crossing guard.  At the crossroads of life, which are very numerous if we stop to count them, He is there pointing us in the right direction.  The question is:  Do we choose His path or our own?  Do we go where we feel He is leading us or do we ignore Him because His way doesn't make sense to us?  I regrettably admit that I have taken my own road many times and most often it leads to pain and confusion.  But "God is not a God of confusion, but of peace" ~ 1 Corinth. 14:33

The past several years of ministry have been somewhat confusing for me.  Of course, lots of good things have come out of it but it's like I've been wandering and searching and trying to figure out my place in the world and in the church (the collective body of Christ).  I've served in many ways and capacities but have still felt confusion; never really 'at home' in the role that I was in.  Again, God has certainly used me in every area, and for that I am eternally grateful.

But once again I find myself at a crossroads in my life.  I'm doing my best to listen to the Crossing Guard and to embrace the gifts that He has given me that will put me on the perfect path that He has laid out for me.  This is always easier said then done; the enemy often tries to confuse me, even within the church. 

I invite you to embark on this journey with me and to help me to run the race that He has set out for me.  I don't know exactly what this looks like, what it will mean, or where it will lead me.  I do know that I will try my best to submit to my Father's will and I covet all prayers for strength and endurance on the road ahead.

Until then,

K

Disclaimer

I have a lot on my mind these days... enough to want to make my head explode.  I figure that if I write about it, which has always been a good outlet for me, then maybe I can make sense of myself and see where God is leading me.

Let me offer this disclaimer:  It ain't pretty.  What I have to say will most likely offend some of you, so if your feelings are easily hurt or you internalize the opinions of others, you probably shouldn't subscribe.  I'm just trying to work some things out for me, and hopefully you, if you want to be worked on or have your ideas challenged.  

I'm in constant prayer that God will give me the words, that these things will be His words and not mine.  Until then,

~K

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